Where am I going to be living? Where am I going to be interning? How am I going to get by money wise this summer? Should I get a part time job? Will I be able to buy food? Will this summer be like the summer of 2010, a constant struggle to even put gas in my car? Am I going to be okay with out my best friends? I could literally go on for hours with all the questions I have about the future. I make myself sick worrying about all of the unknown that is looking at me straight in the face. Just as I begin to break down for the 100th time I am starting to hear the Lord whisper. Trust. Trust me. Don't be shaky in your faith. Trust. I am not going to let you down. So I trust.
Trust in general does not come easy for me. I have been burned many times which has left me scarred and reluctant to trust. So I like to control things. That way I don't have to trust that someone else won't let me down. If I can just plan out my future exactly the way I want it, then I'm good. I will know where I am going therefore I will be at ease. But it doesn't work like that, not even kind of. I have no control. And that can be frightening, right? Well if fear is what I feel when I look at the future then I do not have faith that the Lord will provide for me. Fear and worrying about the future is the same as telling the Lord, I do not have faith in your plan, I do not trust you to take control. When I start to feel that worrying creep up on me, I try to remember what message I am sending to the One that commands the sun to rise in the morning.
There are many times in our lives where God asks us to trust completely in Him. When the future is scary, when a loved one passes away, when you feel lost, or when you don't have enough money to pay the bills. He will provide. He is the way. Take it from me, the Lord has led me out of many dark places, sometimes even had to drag me out of them. But He always hears, He always rescues, and He always has a plan. Although it might not be easy, trust in the One who spoke you into motion, His plan is better than yours anyway!
Proverbs 3:5-6
Trust in the LORD with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways submit to him, and he will make your paths straight.
Jeremiah 29:11
For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the LORD, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.
