Currently I am in one of those moods where anything and everything can set me off. This doesn’t mean that I am an angry person, the reason deep down behind this mood is pain and hurt. This time last year my world went from crooked to completely upside down. I can’t really pinpoint what has me upset right now. All I think of is that its just all coming back to me because the one year mark is approaching. I was deeply hurt by someone who up until a year ago I thought hung the moon. To be betrayed and lied to by someone so close and dear to you is an indescribable life changing feeling. In moments like these when I’m sitting in class on the brink of tears I encourage myself to find joy in my situation.
My family has surrounded me with love like I never knew was possible. Not only have they helped my mother and I pick up the pieces of our lives, but they have helped me renew my love for the Lord. I had begun to neglect my Heavenly Father and the blessings He had given me. I was consumed with hate, pain, and anger. God has shown me His light through the angels in my family. For that I am forever grateful. I find joy in the Lord and in my family.
I adore Auburn University. I love everything about Auburn (with the exception of parking and registration). I have found a new home in this beautiful place. I have made friendships that will last a life time. I have rediscovered who I am here. I am grateful for the opportunity to go to school here. I find joy in Auburn and my amazing friends.
So yeah, sometimes I feel the hurt of the past creep up on me. But I fight the pain away by remembering that I am blessed, and finding joy in those blessings. I know that God will take this pain and use it for His glory.
Romans 8:28 “We know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him…”
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